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[panthered]

► SEES

minako arisato
foolaround

shinjiro aragaki
unevoke

yukari takeba
intoxication

► INVESTIGATION TEAM

chie satonaka
highsteaks

kanji tatsumi
topgun-textiles

naoto shirogane
pishirogone

rise kujikawa
betheirstrength

souji seta
fridgeninja

yosuke hanamura
dj-jiraiya

► PHANTOM THIEVES

ann takamaki
panthered

futaba sakura
i-will-live

goro akechi
foolishjustice

haru okumura
gracile

hifumi togo
asaqueenshould

makoto nijima
studdedcouncilprez

ren amamiya
chainlinks

ryuji sakamoto
effinskull

yusuke kitagawa
wantsnudes

© SUNSARI

Comments

[foolishjustice]

I don't mind, though.

Things back home would have gone much better for all of us if I'd kept fewer secrets, so I'm making an effort to be more open now.

[gracile]

The secrets certainly didn't help.

That's progress in the right direction, then.

[foolishjustice]

The secrets are why Joker had to take such extreme measures to stay alive.

We talked about what happened. I would have been willing to help him fake his death, but he couldn't have known because he had no way to tell what my true feelings were.

[gracile]

[She wants to say something scathing. She wants to ask him if his true feelings would've kept her father alive.

She even types it out.

She erases it.]

There are a lot of things you should've told us beforehand, I suppose.

[foolishjustice]

I know.

I truly am sorry for not reaching out. It's what I should have done the first time I had a chance to intercept Joker in the Metaverse.

[gracile]

There are quite a few things you should have done.
Or shouldn't.

[foolishjustice]

I'm aware. Knowing what I do now, that I actually wasn't the only one who could have stopped Shido, I do regret not refusing his orders from the beginning.

[gracile]

[This time, she can't stop herself from pressing 'send' before she has a chance to delete it.

But it hurts. It hurts, seeing him here, seeing conversations with her friends interacting with him like this is normal and everything is normal. All of the emotional processing she'd done after his death back home, making peace with the idea that she could understand his actions but not forgive them, it feels useless here when he's alive and well and walking around and one of them again.

She'd swallowed her grief for the sake of the plan, once. It's harder a second time.]

Regret won't bring anyone back from the dead.
Knowing what you should have done doesn't change what you did.

[i_will_live]

Ha-

I mean Noir. What he did... I could never expect you to forgive him. I've come to the conclusion though that if Shido had wanted I could have been manipulated into doing those same things.

Even your own Father. Despite everything he did, all the people he worked until they dropped and lives ruined. What he was willing to put you through even... You didn't want him to disappear. You wanted him to have a change of heart, see his actions for what they were and make amends. Right?

I won't stop you from saying what you want to, but I believe he deserves that chance. Despite opposing us, he was... is just like us.

[gracile]

It's as I told him on the ark. I can understand why he did the things he did.
Accepting them and understanding them are different things.

I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said any of this.

[i_will_live]

I wouldn't want you to bottle up how you feel, but I thought it was important you knew how I felt too with our shared circumstances.

You don't have to accept them. I just wanted to let you know I've decided to put my hopes into Crow making amends and leading a life free of Shido's influence.

Just like you wished for your Father to be free of his grief and greed.

[gracile]

It's not that I don't wish him to genuinely repent and reform. Of course I want that.

It's just that...
I'm sorry, I really shouldn't have brought this up.
I thought I had moved past it.
Can I delete these messages? Can you?

[piercedyourheart]

moving on isn't a straight line
it's more of a zig-zag
there will always be times when you falter
when you miss them or find yourself angry
those moments are okay to share
don't apologize.

[wantsnudes]

Oracle is correct in suggesting Crow should leave you be, I think. Talking with him is only hurting you, and I hope he comes to understand that.

Will you be all right?

[panthered]

Agreeing with what's been said already.

You don't have to keep it to yourself, or blame yourself for being able to forgive easily. We're all still working on this, and it's not going to be as simple as making criminal confess their crimes back home. We all know that. But nobody else here is swallowing their feelings, and it isn't fair to expect you to do that, either.

I'm always here to listen if you need me, Noir.

[foolaround]

i know we don't really know each other yet but i agree with everyone else

it's okay, noir. really.

[i_will_live]

Sorry I don't think I can delete them right now.

Don't worry about it though Noir, I'd prefer if you were honest with us.

It's just I don't think Crow's used to things not going to hell when people are mad at him. I mean keep in mind he was dealing with Shido for years.

So I think it's good for him to find out he can give you some space and the rest of us can talk to him until you have time to work it out rather than you bottling it up until things reach a breaking point.

[foolishjustice]

Oracle.

She's right.

Nothing I can do at this point will make a difference to what I've already done.

[He types a few more things, then deletes them. If he says what he's really thinking, he'll just come across as looking for pity. He doesn't want that.]

[i_will_live]

The past can't be undone, but you control your future.

I believe in your second chance, your ability to truly change and be a force for good. You're doing so much of that already by letting us in to talk to you. To see you without the mask you always feel like you need to put up.

[foolishjustice]

Do I, really? For all I know, I'm living on borrowed time.

The only reason I know you don't have to be my enemies is because I've learned what happens when I try to stop you from getting to Shido first.

There's every chance that that future can't be changed based on information I learned from it.

The Prismals have been kind to me, and I want to do what I can to help them. But can this really be called a second chance?

[foolaround]

that depends on you. i KNOW im out of time at home and im still trying to make the most of this

[effinskull]

[This entire conversation....

Pissed him off.]

Noir, this ain't right. You don't gotta apologize or keep things to yourself- doing that is way more shitty!

If you need me to call you lemme know and we can belt shit out together, 'kay? Sometimes screaming is what you gotta do.

[gracile]

It's not that, Skull.
It's just that... perhaps it would have been better to save it for a more private setting instead of where everyone else can see.

You're very sweet.

[effinskull]

Dude, screw that! Let it all out!

Legit, let's go out for dinner, you'll feel better if you just rant, trust me.

[gracile]

Thank you, Skull.
I really do appreciate it.

Where would you like to go?